Since giving up drinking I have learned to work harder than I ever thought I could, take bigger risks (the good kind, not the I-make-bad-decisions-when-I’m-drunk kind), and generally take steps towards the life I want for myself. I’m attempting things I never would have been brave enough to try in the past, and for the most part I have been okay with not knowing how those attempts would work out.
Lately I have harboured more anxiety, angst, and dissatisfaction than I would like. I've caught myself feeling lower than I've felt in a long time and that frustrates me. Even though I have learned to ask for the things I want (it’s funny how often simply asking is enough), I haven’t quite mastered the art of responding gracefully to being brushed off or made to wait.
The chief source of my frustration lies in waiting to hear if I have been accepted into the university program I applied for. Meanwhile, I am waiting to see if the career path I envision for myself lines up with the opportunities that will be made available to me at work. I am chomping at the bit and ready to continue the trend of steady personal growth that I have become accustomed to. All of this waiting and trying to plan for any possible outcome is stressing me out!
I know that everybody has to wait sometimes, and I also know that in a few weeks I will have most, if not all, of the answers I am waiting for. In the meantime all I can do is try to stay positive and keep taking steps towards the life I want. I don’t have to like uncertainty, but I do need to learn to handle it more gracefully than I have been.
How do you deal with uncertainty in your life? What keeps you focused on your goals when you aren't sure if things will go your way?